Puke, puke, and more puke!

Happy Birthday to me. My gift? two kids with the stomach flu who have puking on and off since 6 pm last night. I got about 3 hours of sleep last night. My oldest didn't make it to the bucket a couple of times, so instead it got all over the bed and pillow. Hey, at least her hair was missed. So I had to strip the bed. Nothing like doing laundry at 1 am. It seemed that every time I had just fallen asleep, I could hear her start to vomit and the whole thing would start again. My 2 year old also has it and even if I put a bucket or bowl under his mouth, he won't use it. However, he will puke in a towel. It is now 9am and I have used almost every towel we own and am running dangerously low on Clorox 2 and laundry detergent. So far my daughter has not puked this morning and was able to hold down a cup of tea. The baby drank an entire cup of juice and held that down for about 15 minutes before it all came right back on my couch. So our stairs, rug, and couch have been puked on. Yes, my house smells lovely. I am going to have to borrow my mother-in-law's steam cleaner and see if I can get rid of the smell. If I can't fix the carpet, it will be thrown out. I used carpet cleaner and water and scrubbed it by hand, but it didn't make a difference. I have not showered since Thursday, gross I know, but tis the life of a busy mom. My husband worked all day yesterday, is working today and will be working everyday until Christmas. I'm sure he is happy to be away from the puking brigade because he does not do well with puke. I don't think he could have handled being puked all over his back like I did last night. Maybe someone up there thinks this is a funny trick to play on an already stressed mom who has a lot to get done in the next three days. If so, I'm not laughing. I just pray I don't get sick because quite frankly, I don't have the time right now. 

So, Happy Birthday to me. ;) 

Baby its cold outside

and we are supposed to be getting some snow and ice. Woohoo! I can't wait. Can you tell that I am dripping with sarcasm? Tomorrow is the kids' last day before they are off on Winter break. I'm thinking they may be be canceling schools. The storm is supposed to hit this evening and last until well into tomorrow. We can get anywhere from 3-10" with ice.

I've been feeling pretty good and at times forget I'm pregnant, that is until I go to bend over and pick something off the floor. I'm sure you are scratching your head wondering how and that is a good question. I think it is probably because I don't have constant nausea anymore, though I do get tired a lot and it isn't like the baby moves 24 hours a day, but let me tell you, when he or she does, I know it! If this keeps up, I may have a broken bone or punctured organ by the time I deliver.  LOL I can't believe I only have 17 weeks left give or take a week (more like take one or three). Time is just flying by and I can't seem to catch up. Christmas is next week already. I swear, just yesterday it was Halloween.

I'm starting to get a little nervous about how I'm going to handle four kids. I mean around my house I get caught up on one thing only to turn around and find that a bazillion other things have fallen apart. I know it is normal, but some days it gets a little overwhelming. I know I'll get through it all, I think we all need a moment of panic every once and a while. 

No new ultrasound for me.

*sigh* Went to the doctor yesterday and according to the radiologist's report, they were able to see the heart fine so that means no ultrasound. I guess this little one is living up to be a big surprise in more ways than one. LOL! You know, I really don't mind. We did not find out what we were having with our first, so it only seems fitting that we don't with our last. So I guess I will have to start looking at both boy and girl names. Hmm, I already have a couple in mind, but I'm not sure how my husband will feel about them. As with our last baby, we won't be telling the names we picked until this one is born. :) Many of you know that two of my kids start with A and one with an N. So to answers some questions, no we did not plan it like that and no I will not only be looking for N names. We pick names according to if we like them, not what they start with.

Pictures.

Just thought I'd put up the ultrasound picture and a new belly shot. I have finally had to break down and start wearing maternity tops most of the time. I can still wear some of my regular sweaters and my husband's sweatshirts. Oh and I love wearing my maternity overalls, they are so comfy! I'll be seeing the doctor this Wednesday and should be scheduling another ultrasound soon.

Boy or Girl?

Well, that seems to be the burning question on many people's minds. However our little stubborn baby decided against opening his or her legs to give us a peek yesterday during the ultrasound. On the bright side, everything else looks great and the baby is measuring right on target. I will be getting another ultrasound soon because the tech could not get a good picture of the four chambers of the heart because of the way the baby was laying. Hopefully, little stubborn will think about it and allow us a peek between the legs at the next one. Here is some information on a 20 week fetus. I can't believe I'm already halfway through!

How your baby's growing:Your baby weighs about 10 1/2 ounces now (The tech said our little one was close to 13 oz.). He's also around 6 1/2 inches long from head to bottom and about 10 inches from head to heel — the length of a banana. (For the first 20 weeks, when a baby's legs are curled up against his torso and hard to measure, measurements are taken from the top of his head to his bottom — the "crown to rump" measurement. After 20 weeks, he's measured from head to toe.)He's swallowing more these days, which is good practice for his digestive system. He's also producing meconium, a black, sticky by-product of digestion. This gooey substance will accumulate in his bowels, and you'll see it in his first soiled diaper (some babies pass meconium in the womb or during delivery).

I will be taking a new belly picture soon and will scan the latest ultrasound picture even though it isn't that great.

Another week down.

So here it is one week until my ultrasound and I can't wait. I originally didn't want to find out what we were having, but now the suspense is killing me. Here is some info on the baby now.
Your baby weighs about 8 1/2 ounces, and measures 6 inches, head to bottom. The hair on her scalp is sprouting. This is a crucial time for sensory development: Your baby's brain is designating specialized areas for smell, taste, hearing, vision, and touch. Some research suggests that she may be able to hear your voice now, so don't be shy about reading aloud, taking to her, or singing a happy tune if the mood strikes you.

I lost another member of my family this week. My uncle passed away, following the death of my aunt, his wife who passed less than a month ago. You forget how precious life is while you are in the daily grind until you lose someone and are forced to face reality. I didn't know my uncle that well, but wish I did. He was in the Air Force and served in World War II. He told me the story of how he met his wife and how he never understood why she picked him. He talked about how they were best friends and you can tell how much he loved her just by listening to him and watching his eyes light up when he talked about her. He told me that now that she was gone, he was just waiting to be at her side again and hold her. I imagine that they are now together, perhaps dancing their way around Heaven.

Saw the doctor this week.

I lost a pound, no surprise there. The baby was very active and everytime the doctor would start getting the heartbeat, the baby would move out of the way so she had to keep finding him or her. Apparently this one likes to play hide and seek. I'm starting to feel better although I am still pretty tired and now have another cold. Gotta love kids in school, I think they bring home just about every germ possible. I have my ultrasound scheduled for the day after Thanksgiving at 3. Hopefully baby will cooperate ad let us get a peek in between his or her legs. Here is some new information in the baby.
How your baby's growing: Head to rump, your baby is about 5 1/2 inches long and he weighs almost 7 ounces. He's busy flexing his arms and legs — movements that you'll start noticing more and more in the weeks ahead. His blood vessels are visible through his thin skin, and his ears are now in their final position, although they're still standing out from his head a bit. A protective covering of myelin is beginning to form around his nerves, a process that will continue for a year after he's born. If you're having a girl, her uterus and fallopian tubes are formed and in place. If you're having a boy, his genitals are noticeable now, but he may hide them from you during an ultrasound.

Is it really November?

The year has really flown by! I am so glad that Halloween is over. I was wiped out the next day. We trick or treated for just under 2 1/2 hours. We now have a paper grocery bag full of candy and that was after throwing away a bunch of candy. I also can't believe I'm already 16 weeks.It seems like just yesterday I was standing in my bathroom looking at the positive test and telling it (the test) that this was not funny. LOL As if the test cared what I thought. If it could talk, it would probably point its finger at me and laugh. I am feeling better than I was, but still have rough days. I go next week for my doctor's appointment and will get my ultrasound scheduled. I'm pretty sure this little one is a boy. I wasn't this sick with my daughter, but man did my boys give me Hell. I guess I'll know soon enough, that is if he or she chooses to cooperate. I weighed myself last time I was by a scale and I lost a pound. However, that isn't too big of a deal. Here is some info on a 16 week fetus and a new belly picture.

Baby: Your fully formed fetus, now in about its 11th week of development, measures 2.6 to 3.1 inches from crown to rump and weighs between half an ounce and seven-tenths of an ounce -- about the size of a peach. The head is still disproportionately bigger than the body, but the rest of the body is starting to catch up. In fact, your baby is growing rapidly these days. The face is starting to look more human, with eyes moving closer together. Toes and fingers are clearly separate, and ankles and wrists have formed. External genitalia are becoming visible. Intestines are shifting into their proper place, too.

New Kids on the Block concert

It was AWESOME! I had such a blast, I felt like a kid again. I was a little concerned at first because my head is stuffy so I thought my ear drums were going to burst from the music, but they adjusted. :) Natasha Bedingfield was one of the opening acts and I think I will definitely be buying her CD this week. The New Kids really know how to put on a great show. They played for just under 2 hours. Let me tell you, they are just as cute now as they were 15 years ago. My crush on Danny Wood has been renewed. Unfortunately, no pictures. I didn't want to chance my camera being taken away. The person I went with took some with her cell phone and if she can figure it out, she'll email them to me. woohoo I'm so glad I went. I am sore from all the standing, my throat hurts, and I only got 4 hours of sleep, but it was soooooooo worth it!!!

Holy Hotness!!!!!!!!

I have a cold.

I've known for a week that I was getting sick, but it chose today to hit. My throat hurts, my sinuses are stuffy and I have a migraine. I'm supposed to be going to a concert tonight, New Kids on the Block to be exact. Yes you read that right, me, a 28 year old mom of 3 is going to an NKOTB concert. Unfortunately, it does not start until 8 so that means my usual bedtime of 9:30 will really be pushed back. Hopefully I'll feel better by tonight. Maybe I can talk my husband into stopping at Dunkin Donuts on his way home from work and picking me up one of their yummy hot chocolates.

It's getting colder..

I don't really mind, but it seems like we went from the 80s to the 50s in a day. I thought pregnant women are supposed to be hot all the time. I seem to be the opposite, I am always cold. I long to pull out my heating blanket, but that is another pregnancy no no. I'm finally starting to feel better, but I still have some days where I would love to just go back to bed and stay there all day. Then again, I think we all have days like that.

I forgot...

Some baby info. I'm officially in the second trimester at 14 weeks! Here is some info on a 14 week fetus and a baby bump picture, although not a real great one.



How your baby's growing: This week's big developments: Your baby can now squint, frown, grimace, pee, and possibly suck his thumb! Thanks to brain impulses, his facial muscles are getting a workout as his tiny features form one expression after another. His kidneys are producing urine, which he releases into the amniotic fluid around him — a process he'll keep up until birth. He can grasp, too, and if you're having an ultrasound now, you may even catch him sucking his thumb. In other news: Your baby's stretching out. From head to bottom, he measures 3 1/2 inches — about the size of a lemon— and he weighs 1 1/2 ounces. His body's growing faster than his head, which now sits upon a more distinct neck. By the end of this week, his arms will have grown to a length that's in proportion to the rest of his body. (His legs still have some lengthening to do.) He's starting to develop an ultra-fine, downy covering of hair, called lanugo, all over his body. Your baby's liver starts making bile this week — a sign that it's doing its job right — and his spleen starts helping in the production of red blood cells. Though you can't feel his tiny punches and kicks yet, your little pugilist's hands and feet (which now measure about 1/2 inch long) are more flexible and active.



I must respectfully disagree on the last sentence since I have been feeling the baby move for almost a week now. However I was able to feel movement early with all my pregnancies. SO here is the picture, not great, but oh well. As you can see my belly just barely stretches out further than by boobs. LOL! I no longer fit in my regular clothes, but a lot of my maternity clothes is still too big. I've been wearing maternity undies lately because when I wear my regular underwear, it cuts right through the middle of my stomach giving me the appearance of having two fat rolls, not so attractive if you ask me.

Hello Sciatica!

My sciatic nerve reminded me that it was still around on Wednesday. Woohoo! Unfortunately the medicine they tell you to take to help it I can't because of the baby. So I spent a good portion of the evening with a heating pad on my lower back. Thankfully when I woke up the next morning the pain was gone, but who knows if it will return. I had a lot of Sciatica pain when I was pregnant with my daughter, but not with my sons. Could this be a sign it's a girl? Who knows, probably just means my body is getting old. LOL

Cold & Flu season has arrived!

Of course my kids don't like to do anything half assed. Do they get a little cold? Nope my oldest son woke us up late Thursday night coughing and struggling to get a deep breathe in. Scared the crap out of us. Off to the ER we went where we were at for four hours. He got a shot of steroids and diagnosed with Croup. Not to be outdone, my "baby" (he's 2) came down with it Monday night. Thankfully he didn't have an attack, so we didn't have to go to the ER just went to the doctor's the next day. We'll see what my daughter decides to do. Hopefully, she'll just stay healthy or just get a normal cold.

Wow, it's been a while..

There was nothing really new to report. I was still feeling like crap, so how much can one person complain? We did tell the kids the day I had my ultrasound and they were excited especially our daughter. You would have thought we told her Christmas was the next day.

I saw the doctor yesterday. My official due date now is April 17, 2009. I did not gain any weight this month, but I didn't lose any so that is good. I met a different doctor in the practice and she was super friendly and nice. She prescribed me Zofran for my nausea and Immitrex for my migraines. So far, I haven't had to use either.

My next appointment will be November 11th and they will schedule another ultrasound then. Hopefully the baby will cooperate and let us see between his or her legs. I'm going to be taking a new belly picture, so stay tuned.

Ultrasound

I had my ultrasound today and it went fine. The baby is measuring 9 weeks 3 days, so that would make my due date April 20th. He/she had a strong heartbeat and was quite wiggly. Here is a picture, I know it only looks like a blob, but it is my blob. :) BTW, the umbilical runs right under the blue arrow.

Saw the doctor yesterday.

It went well, the office was nice as was the staff. The doctor was nice enough, she wasn't super friendly, but not necessarily cold either, just very matter of fact. They weighed me and apparently I have gained almost 7 pounds since the last time I was at my doctor's. I figured I had gained some weight seeing that I can only fit into elastic waist pants, but I wasn't expecting that, Damn double stuff Oreos! The doctor did the exam and as any woman who has an exam knows what I am talking. After the exam she takes out the Doppler(tool used to listen to a heartbeat) and starts saying how most women don't hear a heartbeat until about 12-13 weeks, but slender woman can hear it as early as the tenth week. Even though I am only 9 weeks, she'll try. Oookkkaaayyy *scratching my head* how is that some slender women hear it at 10 weeks, but me at 9 weeks am supposed to? So of course she can't find a heartbeat, yeah, big surprise. So she tells me she wants me to go to another room to get a quick ultrasound to in her words "Make sure something is there." Okay, now this woman has got me worried. So we go to the other room and she tells me it isn't an official ultrasound, just to check pregnancy. I got to see my little blob and was able to hear the heartbeat, which as I has said before is possibly the greatest sound in the world. She wants me to go in for an ultrasound to measure my cervix to help calculate my due date. She also gave me a prescription for my morning (all day) sickness, but told me to only take if I really needed it because it would make me drowsy. Well, I took one yesterday at about 3:30 and by 5:30 I felt like a zombie. Drowsy definitely did not describe what I felt like, I was falling asleep on the couch by 7. I decided against taking it today since I have to drive to and from the kids' schools, however I have actually felt pretty good today. Woohoo! I had a couple of touches of nausea, but nothing to bad.

I think the kids know

or at least have some sort of psychic intuition. Today while eating lunch my son tells me that my belly is getting fat and big. My daughter replied that my belly wasn't fat, I was just you know, growing. He then said, "Well, maybe she just has a baby in her belly." Seriously, where do they come up with these things? 

Here is some information on a 9 week old fetus.

Your new resident is nearly an inch long — about the size of a grape — and weighs just a fraction of an ounce. She's starting to look more and more human. Her essential body parts are accounted for, though they'll go through plenty of fine-tuning in the coming months. Other changes abound: Your baby's heart finishes dividing into four chambers, and the valves start to form — as do her tiny teeth. The embryonic "tail" is completely gone. Your baby's organs, muscles, and nerves are kicking into gear. The external sex organs are there but won't be distinguishable as male or female for another few weeks. Her eyes are fully formed, but her eyelids are fused shut and won't open until 27 weeks. She has tiny earlobes, and her mouth, nose, and nostrils are more distinct. The placenta is developed enough now to take over most of the critical job of producing hormones. Now that your baby's basic physiology is in place, she's poised for rapid weight gain.

And so my frustration continues...

As you know, I had a doctor's appointment yesterday. I drove the 45 minutes to get there, signed in and was told that they didn't take my insurance. UGH! We have Illinois Health Connect which is like medicare, but we pay for the insurance. We have co-pays, pay for prescriptions, etc., just like a regular insurance, but it is run by the state. So when I called and asked if they were taking the insurance, I was told yes. The woman at the office told me that they only take full public aid. Excuse me? So because we pay for our insurance I can not be taken care of. We called the state when we left and the woman on the other end was completely baffled. She said the only difference between our insurance and full aid was we pay for it. So the search for a doctor is on again. I have already called at least 10 today and they either don't work on Friday or aren't taking my insurance. So I am giving up the search until Monday. I was really hoping I could get some relief from this constant sickness.


Update:
I decided to try again. I called numerous different doctors for at least 45 minutes, of course all of the answers were a unanimous no when asked if they take my insurance. Then I got to the last number for the day and was in near tears due to my frustration. When the woman said yes they would take me, I couldn't help myself and started crying. She was so nice and I kept apologizing and explained how no one would take me. She said she understood and not to worry about it. So now I have an appointment at 9 on Monday. Please keep your fingers crossed that I actually get to see a doctor this time.

An update on school.

I decided to cancel my last class today, I have just been too sick. Most of yesterday was spent in bed or laying on the couch because I was so sick. Today was a decent day, but I never know from day to day how bad it will be. So for right now things are on hold, but I'm okay with that because I know that I'm still going to go back.

I would like to thank everyone who gave me such a positive response to our news. It really means a lot to me to know that I have support. :)

I go see the doctor on Thursday so I'll update after my appointment.

Well,

with some reluctance (mostly on my part) we told our parents (or at least our moms). We got really good reactions. I'm hoping that they will continue to spread the word to other family members, if I not I just sent them a link to this blog. ha ha Kind of sneaky of me, isn't it? I realize that this baby is blessing and Pfft to anyone who may have any negative comments about it. I go to the doctor in a week and am hoping that they will give me something for this nausea. I am so thankful to have an awesome husband who completely understands and does not make me feel bad for not doing anything. I can only imagine how sick and tired he is of my complaining because I know I am! He however just jumps right in and does what needs to be done. I'm just happy to know that the morning, or should I say all day sickness will not (hopefully) last forever.

Seriously?

I am down to three pairs of shorts that fit and two of those are elastic! Okay, so I'll admit that my other shorts were starting to get a little snug feeling before I got pregnant. LOL! I'm sure that since this is #4 that everything is going to pop out a lot faster. Seeing as that my stomach muscles aren't what they used to be. Heck, who am I kidding? My muscles were never that great. I know it is common in the 1st trimester to pop out a little due to bloating, oh what fun! Here is a picture I took of my baby bump a week or so ago, and no I was not pushing it out. Please keep in mind that my stomach was not washboard flat to begin with. Perhaps this is not a baby bump after all, but just my chubby self. Haha, either way enjoy. Yep, there it is, expect more pictures as I progress. I haven't puked yet, but the nausea really takes me out. My big fear now is that I'm going to throw up in the pick up/drop off line at the kids' school. *Note to self, put a bucket, some bags, water, and breath mints in car in case of hurling.* So I still don't have an official due date, but according to my calculations and an online calculator, I should be due around April 14th. That makes me about 7 weeks. If you look at the widget to the right, the baby is actually starting to look a little more like a baby and not an alien. Here is some information I found out about a 7 week Embryo:

The baby's heart is now beating regularly at 150 beats per minute.
The arm buds have grown and now the hands are beginning to develop.
The whole baby is still only 1/3 of an inch long, about the size of a grain of rice, but the brain, intestines, pituitary gland and pancreas are growing.
Though the genital tubercle is present, you can't tell by looking whether it is a girl or a boy, yet.
The baby's face is developing rapidly, the nasal pits have formed, the ears are developing and there are developing lenses on the eyes.

Woohoo! We have nasal pits and arm buds! Seriously though, I find it absolutely amazing that something the size of a grain of rice has a beating heart.

Yummy.

It's amazing how your sense of taste and smell increases with pregnancy. Anytime I drive past a BBQ restaurant my mouth waters. I attribute that to this fantastic pulled pork sandwich I had the day before I found out I was pregnant. I went shopping with a couple of friends and we got lunch at a restaurant called the Red Star Tavern. I seriously have thought about that sandwich almost everyday since. It is a good thing it isn't close to my house or I would be eating one everyday. LOL! I also seem to enjoy the taste of ketchup more than I ever have, I drench my fries in it. Oh and onion rings! I had some yesterday and you would have thought I was eating the finest chocolate in the world, they were so good! Okay, so my food talk is done with.

I have been getting more nauseous as the days go by, some days I just have to lay on the couch and hope it goes away. It is supposedly a good sign because it means the placenta is working and hormone levels are up.

Holy cow!

I completely forgot how truly exhausting it is to grow another human being! I wish I could sleep all day long. I have no energy and of course am getting annoyed with myself because I'm not getting much done around the house. I wish I could nap when my youngest takes a nap and my older two rest, but it is generally right after lunch and my blood sugar is up, so that is out. 

On the upside, as long as I eat something small every few hours, I don't get that nauseous. Woohoo! 

So the shock has worn off, now the worry sets in...

This pregnancy is no different from the others in the beginning. The fear of a miscarriage is in my almost every thought. I have never had one, but that does nothing to reassure me. I had three relatively healthy pregnancies, (with the exception of preterm labor the last one.) and I feel like I'm tempting fate this time around. Every little pain or cramp I'm positive that something bad is happening. sigh I know it isn't in my hands, but it doesn't make it any less scary. I won't stop obsessing over it until I hear the heartbeat, that gentle whooshing sound that is possibly one if the sweetest sounds in the world.

So I made a decision about school, I dropped one of my two classes. I was just worried that it would be too much stress to take two. It was going to be stressful to begin with, but throwing the pregnancy into mix changed things. My last two pregnancies resulted in me being sick all day long. If that happens this time around, I don't know how I would be able to handle two classes of homework, plus the kids, house, Girl Scouts and taking care of me. The last of course being extremely important. So, I'm taking Composition 101 which is basically a prerequisite for everything. I'm not giving up on college all together, my plans have just been delayed.

So I went to my regular doctor yesterday about a problem I had before I found out I was pregnant. I asked him if I should get another pregnancy test since the HPT said it was positive. He said no that once it is positive, there is no doubt. That is kind of what I figured. It reminds me of the movie Juno when the store clerk tells her after she's taken numerous tests that the test wasn't an Etch a Sketch and that "that's one doodle that can't be undiddled". I've come to terms with this pregnancy and am a little excited. I wonder if it will be a boy or a girl. My daughter will be so disappointed if she gets another brother because as she says "boys are stinky." Either way I just want a healthy baby and pregnancy. 

Out of the mouths of babes...

Today I was watching Father of the Bride II and my 6yr old came and sat down next to me. She was just in time for the part of the movie where the babies are born. She said "Aww", but was a little disappointed that the first baby was a boy. I told her that people didn't get to pick what kind of baby they have. She said "I know, that is okay and I just really want you to get a baby in your belly again".  I said, "Well don't you think we already have enough kids?" and she said "No, I think we should have more." We have not told the kids and won't until I'm further along. Maybe she has he own intuition and already knows.  Either way, it made me feel good. 

When to tell?

That is the question. Besides my husband, only one other person knows about this baby. Why aren't I telling people you may ask? Honestly, I'm a coward.  I don't want to hear the disappointment or disapproval in peoples' voices or see it in their faces. People can make some really mean comments about having another baby especially if you already have two or more. I know I shouldn't care, but when comments come from family and close friends, how can you not care?  Maybe this time I'll get a better reaction, but I doubt it. I'm not saying that everyone will have a smart ass remark, but enough will and that is why I hesitate. There has been so many times that I wanted to tell someone and changed my mind.  *sigh* Once I see the doctor and have an actual due date I'll start telling people, but until them mum is the word. 

Oh an in case you are wondering, my toe is much better. :)

Talk about a weird turn of events...

Yesterday afternoon I was trying to break up a fight between my older two and somehow injured my big toe. I thought that I had just stubbed it, but after an hour and a half of it still hurting and starting to look funny, off to the immediate care I went. Of course my husband had gone to work right before I hurt it so I had to get my father in law to take me. Oh, did I forget to mention that it is on my driving foot? So I get checked in and wait to get triaged where I completely forget to tell the nurse who was triaging(is that even a word?) that I'm pregnant. See my brain is still not comprehending this important info. So she sends me to X-ray. Do you think they offered to get me a wheelchair? No, so I walk or I should say hobble/limp to x-ray where the tech asks me the last date of my period I tell her and then say I think I'm pregnant. THINK? Jeez, I know I am because the test said so! So she calls someone who says I can't get the x-ray because of the pregnancy. So I limp back to the waiting room to wait for the doctor. After about 1/2 hour, I finally get into to see the doctor who says I need an x-ray. I explained that they told me no. She said that is ridiculous because it is my toe and they can just shield me. Whatever. She at least has them come get me in a wheelchair. So I get the x-ray, go back to the room to wait some more. The doctor said no breaks or dislocations, just a sprain. So I was told to ice it, take Tylenol and elevate. I asked if I should wrap it and she said no. So I hobble home feeling like I complete wasted my time and my insurance's money.

Fast forward to last night. I am in so much pain I can't sleep or even lay still. I might as had been taking a vitamin instead of the Tylenol. Finally around midnight I started researching Tylenol Pm on the Internet and found that it is considered safe. So out of sheer desperation for some sort of sleep, I took one. Ahhh, sleep at last.

I awoke this morning in as much pain as I was last night. I called the immediate care again and they said the radiologist re-checked the x-ray and found I had a soft tissue damage and swelling by the joint. I can't take anything stronger than regular Tylenol because I am so early in the pregnancy. Can we say OUCH?

Just now at 5pm he pain is somewhat tolerable. I'm curious how the rest of the week will go...

Here is a picture of the oh so attractive shoe I had to wear.

Still in shock....

I'm really annoyed right now because I just had this whole freaking thing typed out and it took too long to load, so it erased everything and NOTHING got saved. UGH!

So, on to my story, again. I told my husband yesterday through many tears and apologies. He said not to be upset and there was nothing to be sorry for. I don't know why I doubted his reaction to the news. He has never made me think that he would react negatively about the news of a baby. I think he is in shock because neither one has spoken about it since.

I don't know when we'll tell our families, would right before the birth be too long? sigh

I spent most of yesterday trying to find an OB. What a frustrating ordeal that was! I am grateful that we have insurance, but I wish the doctors weren't such crappy pickings. Most of the places were in horrible neighborhoods, weren't taking new patients or couldn't get me in until October. I finally found someone in a decent neighborhood, but can't get in until Septemebr 11th. I wish I could go back to my old OB, she is awesome. Unfortunately she doesn't take the insurance we have. We could get insurance through my husband's work that she takes, but it would be like paying a second mortgage every month and we just can't swing that. So, I guess I will just put on my big girl panties or in this case maternity undies (lmao) and suck it up because in the end all that matters in that me and this baby stay healthy.

August 12, 2008

It is truly amazing how your life can change in an instant. I took a HPT today at 6:30am and before a minute was up the little + sign appeared. Wow. I am going to be a mother of four, yes I said 4 children in nine months. I just took the test on a fluke because my last period was super short and light and I haven't been feeling up to par. How do I tell my husband? He will be so upset. A fourth was not in our plans, at least not for a few years. I'm supposed to start college this fall. Can I do that now? How do I tell the rest of our family? I don't know what to do. I know this baby is a blessing, but man it really took me by surprise. I thought for sure the test would be negative. Maybe I'll go buy another test before I say anything. I'm in shock right now and kind of moving through a haze.

An instant that is all it takes for your life to change forever....