7 days left

Actually more like 6 days, 10 hours, and 44 minutes left of my 20s. That is right folks, next Monday I will be 30! :~0 When the Hell did that happen? I swear just yesterday I was sitting in English Honors with Mrs. Giordano at Reavis and now I'm an almost 30 year old! I don't have any special plans for the day. I think I may dress in all black for the day to mourn my twenties. Seriously though, I am not freaking out that I'm going to be thirty, it is just a number anyway. I don't feel like I am almost thirty or maybe I do. Hmm, how exactly does one know when you are feeling your age? I have a few gray hairs, chronic headaches and an occasional back ache, but I think that can do more with having four kids under 8 then the big 3-0.  What does 40 feel like or even 80? After all I sometimes feel like I could be forty, but there are days when I feel like I could still be 19 and that I'm just babysitting these kids until their real parents come home. So, I'm wondering how old do YOU feel?

It is beginning to look a lot like Christmas..

however I still am not in that festive of a spirit yet. Yesterday morning I was awoken early by my little fur monster, baby, when I took her out, it was snowing! It made me happy to see it for about 2 seconds, then the thoughts of how much a pain it will be to get 4 kids bundled everyday hit me. But hey, for those 2 seconds it was nice. LOL Seriously though, I do like the snow. I love how it makes things so peaceful and not matter how cold it is outside, it never seems that bad if it is snowing. The kids were disappointed that it was all gone by the time they got home from school. Today is a new day and it is snowing again, so maybe today they can run around in it. Lucy loves the snow too.

I have my anxiety attacks somewhat under control. I had my daily medication upped and that seems to have helped. I have still had a few attacks, but not as frequent as before. Thanks everyone who showed me support.  

We put our tree up, or I should say my husband put up the tree and lights and the kids decorated it.  We put some of the more precious ornaments on top. 

I belong to a message board with a wonderful bunch of women. Every year we have an ornament exchange. This year my buddy gave me two very special ornaments. One had our names and the date under snowmen (which I love) and the other one was in memory of my mom. <3

Here is the one for my mom.