I've been tagged!

A fellow blogger and friend  Mama P tagged me, so it is my turn to answer some questions. :)

There are some rules:

1. Post these rules
2. You must post 11 random things about yourself
3. Answer the questions set for you in the post you were tagged in
4. Create 11 new questions for your tagees to answer
5. Tag them on Twitter, Facebook or your blog

My 11 random things.

1. I am so grateful my husband works two jobs so I have the privilege to stay home and care for our kids even though he hates it.

2. I love mint chocolate chip ice cream, but only the green kind.

3. The end of this month my mom will be gone 3 years and I still find myself going to call her to tell her something.

4. I love my kids more than words can describe.

5. I need to buy some new undies and socks. (hey they are supposed to be random things. LOL)

6. I hate grocery shopping with the kids.   

7. I would love to go college, but am realizing that is a dream that will never come true. 

8. I am blessed to have an awesome Mother in law and Father in law.

9. If I had to move to another state, it would be Pennsylvania.

10. I believe in ghosts. 

11. I would love to see my family more often than holidays.  

My 11 Questions:

1. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
Hmm, that is a tough one. Maybe wait a little longer between Allison and Nicholas. God that sounds terrible. Let me explain though. It is not because I couldn't handle it or even for Allison's sake. I would wait for Nick. Why? Because I truly believe me having him so close to Allison and the fact that he was three weeks early contributed to his ADHD and other problems. I don't care what anyone says, I carried him, I was the one who lost 18 pounds(never gained an ounce) with his pregnancy because I was so sick.  I will feel responsible for his problems until the day I die because I feel when I should have protected and cared for him the most I failed. 

2. Paper bags, or plastic? 
It depends on the store, but mostly plastic. 

3. When was the last time you tried something new and what was it?
I tried grilled octopus last Friday on date night. :) 

4. What is your favorite scent?

I guess it is a toss up between new baby smell and lilacs. LOL
5. If you had to teach something, what would you teach?

It depends on what you mean to teach. If I was a teacher I would want Kindergarten or 1st grade. If it is just teaching someone something, I want to teach my kids how to cook. 
6. What pair of shoes have you had the longest? 

My pair of clog type black sandals my husband's Aunt bought me about 9 1/2 years ago while we were visiting her in Pennsylvania. 
7. If you could change your name, what would you change it to, if you even would?
I wouldn't change my name. 

8. What are three "NEVERS" in your life? 
I try not to say never, but I try to never tell my kids plans for things until the last minute in case something happens. One pet we will never own is a snake and I will never eat a rabbit 

9. What is one defining moment from childhood? 

Racking my brain here..... Being told by someone important that he feels sorry for my future husband. To this day that phrase still haunts me.
10. Do you have manicured nails? If so, what color?

Hahahahaha, not even close. My toenails are rocking a very chipped red look right now though and my nails don't have anything. 
11. Name one new goal you can set this year to positively impact those around you.

I am going to try and not be so negative about myself. 

Now my questions for you...

1. Favortie body part? 

2. What was the best meal you ever had?

3.  Coffee or tea?

4. Favorite dessert?

5. Biggest regret in life? 

6. What was the last wedding you went to? 

7. What is your favorite book?

8.  When was the last time you got your hair done? What did you do to it?

9. If you own any animal, what would it be? 

10. What movie do you identify most with?

11. What do you like to do for yourself?

I tag

Jen

Nicole

Carole

Amanda

Tracy 

Hey there! Did you miss me?

Or should I ask if you even knew I was gone? Things have been well, hectic, although that doesn't really encompass all that has been going on in my life. My mom, my best friend, the person who I speak to on a daily basis has been very ill. She was rushed to the hospital on February 20th and has been there ever since. She has been diagnosed with Stage 4 lung cancer and the prognosis is not good. She already had COPD and Emphysema so her lungs were shot to begin with. I have been coping as well as I can. I feel like I am on the never ending roller coaster. Just when things start to look hopeful, she has a set back. She has had to be intubated twice and the doctors are now considering a tracheotomy.  I used to pray to God to save her because I want her around forever. Now though, I just pray to God that he makes the right decision for HER. I don't want to lose her, but I don't want her to be miserable either. She is a tough fighter and not giving up. She obviously has more things to do in this life because she has been on his doorstep a few times and he has sent her back home. She is looking forward to having a new grand baby to cuddle and love. I have a feeling I will be bringing this little one to the hospital to meet his/her grandmother, but at least they will meet.

I have about 4 weeks or less to go and I myself can not believe how fast time has flown by. I guess a lot of that has to do with the fact that my mom has been in and out of the hospital since September so I haven't really had a ton of time to think about it. I was just thinking the other day that I started my pregnancy years with a parent with cancer (my father was diagnosed with esophageal cancer when I was pregnant with my first) and now I will end my pregnancy years with a parent with cancer. They say God doesn't give you what you can't handle. Well, apparently he has a lot more confidence in me than I do. Besides the stress with my mom, my son has behavior issues and we are dealing with that. We also are no way close to being ready for this baby. Thanks to some wonderful friends, we have some already prepared meals. I did one load of baby clothes and have packed my hospital bag. Outside of that, things are at a stand still. I am just worn out physically and mentally and just don't have it in me to do much more than what is necessary. 

I saw my doctor this week and she put me on Zoloft for depression. She gave me a screening for depression and I apparently scored a little high. In the past I have been against meds for depression, bu t I realize that this time around  I need a little bit more help. To date I have gained ten pounds. We'll see how much more I gain by the end. I see the doctor again next week and every week until I deliver. I hope my little bundle of joy will show her/his mommy some mercy and come just a little bit early. I am already waddling and forget getting out of bed in the morning, that is a feat in itself. LOL I'll include the latest belly picture and some baby info. 

 Man do I look huge! It isn't me, it is the computer camera and my husband's sweatshirt making me look like that. 

Your baby is still packing on the pounds — at the rate of about an ounce a day. She now weighs almost 6 pounds and is more than 18 1/2 inches long. She's shedding most of the downy covering of hair that covered her body as well as the vernix caseosa, the waxy substance that covered and protected her skin during her nine-month amniotic bath. Your baby swallows both of these substances, along with other secretions, resulting in a blackish mixture, called meconium, will form the contents of her first bowel movement. At the end of this week, your baby will be considered full-term. (Full-term is 37 to 42 weeks; babies born before 37 weeks are pre-term and those born after 42 are post-term.) Most likely she's in a head-down position. But if she isn't, your practitioner may suggest scheduling an "external cephalic version," which is a fancy way of saying she'll try to coax your baby into a head-down position by manipulating her from the outside of your belly.