7/11/2009

Goodbye 0-3 months. :(

Sigh.. the time has come to get rid of most of Lauren's 0-3 month size. I know, you are thinking, geez, it is only clothes but it isn't. For me is symbolizes the last time I will ever have a newborn, the last time I will put on one of those teeny tiny onesies. I was just getting used to the fact that she was no longer in newborn size diapers (ok she has been out of them for a while. LOL) and now this. She is already able to get herself on her side, I can't believe how the time is flying by. I try to hold on it, but it just keeps slipping through my hands. I was talking to her last night explaining that she just had to slow down because mommy wasn't ready for her to get big and she looked at me, smiled and laughed. What a stinker. I cherish every moment I have with my children and hope when I am old and gray I will not look back to their childhood and think I should have... 

I am in awe at the amount of people who are amazed that I am a mother to four kids. I often hear, "I don't know how you do it." Well, the truth is, I don't know how I do it either. I just get through everyday the best I can. I have no choice I am mom, mommy, momma, sometimes I would like to change that name, but for the most part I hold those names close to my heart. Sure my house isn't as clean as I would like, there is a constant flow of dirty laundry and dishes, but what can you do? Unless you are lucky enough to employ a house full of workers to get things done, you just push on. 

We go next week for my son's testing and hopefully some sort of diagnosis. Things with him haven't been too bad, or perhaps I have just grown numb to his issues. I'm not in denial of the way he is, I am just worn out. The constant fights and arguing leave me completely exhausted by the end of the day. He would make a great sales man. We are constantly bargaining with him If we say two cookies, he asks for four, we say ten more minutes of play, he says 20. It can get frustrating, but at the same time I find it somewhat amusing. 

BTW, I can not believe that it is already July 11th! This summer is flying by fast, good because the kids will both be in school full time come August, but bad because that means my husband will be back to work. I wonder how clean my house will be with two kids gone all day...  Ha! Who am I kidding?